2:09am

You’re on your own, clinging to a script that you’ve gone off again.
Paging through to see where you went wrong again.
You never let it die.

I come along.
Never part my lips to say an idle word.
But you can’t rest unless you’re my entire world.
And you never let it die.

You want me to say how much I need you,
but I don’t really see the need to.
You want me to hold you like he held you,
but isn’t he the one that fell through?
I just want to be the one you run to.
So shut up and let me love you.

You beg for dawn.
The air you push is bitter, but I bite my tongue. 
As fading night replaces all our brighter suns,
you never let it die.

We blunder on.
You’re losing hope that I can be your chosen one.
If you can’t see what I can’t say is shown and done,
then you’ll never let it die.

I don’t know why I could never bring myself to say it.
I don’t know how we wound up in this game we’re playing.
I know I want you.

Ercolano, MI

Father said, "You best go out and play”
But it's such, such, such a cloudy day.
Mustn't let those things stand in your way.
Ere tomorrow you'll be dreaming

I saw the fire come down the mountainside,
Not the kind of life I'd give my children.
I saw the fire come down the mountainside,
Not the kind of life I'd wish on

You know you'll never even feel a sting.
Not a burning, not a tingle, not a thing.
And time is such an ordinary king.
Ere tomorrow you'll be dreaming.

I saw the fire come down the mountainside,
Not the kind of life I'd give my children.
I saw the fire come down the mountainside.
Not the kind of life I’d…

 

Hound the World

I beat a braided rhythm on the seat
I'm on the scent of something luminous and frightening
Run up your colors, be the thing you couldn't
Let us see, are we as civil in the breaking as the binding?

When the fever breaks, I hope you make a go of it
When the fever shakes, I hope it doesn't leave you cold

Don't you wake up wondering how to keep this going?
Don't you wonder how in the world we made it out so far?
Don't you wake up wondering how to keep this going?
Don't you wander? Hound the world. We made it out, so…

I beat a less original retreat
If I'm unbloodied by the blows of those who'd spite me
But if they cut me deep, I'll be the liar, be the thief,
I'll be the animal. You'll taste it when you bite me. 

When my fire fades, I hope I've made go of it
When my part is played, I hope I never...
I take it back now.
I want to hide all the seams
I bit the bullet and I choked it, sanguine, down
I’m going to find a release
You take the high, I take the low road
I take the high, you take the low road
Freight trains crashing

Don't you wake up wondering how to keep this going?
Don't you wonder how in the world we made it out so far?
Don't you wake up wondering how you keep this going?
Don't you wander? Hound the world. We made it out so far.

Native sun

When I wake up, I feel like an island
Another day, another lie
And I long so much for your mainland
And the teeming shores I’ve long since left behind

I have a dream that I stand by the slips of your towering ships
They never go my way
You were never one to mind your halo

And when I see you, you’re sailing again on a westerly wind
That never blows my way
How am I supposed make it when I’m stranded in the ocean?

When I wake up, I feel like a dying man
And all my life’s a length of rope
Every inch of me frays and I’m knotted
From the strain of years spent holding onto hope

And, somewhere they never bothered to go, we stood battered and lonely,
Screaming, “Look my way!”
You were never one to cry and wait, though
You were never one to cry and wait, though
So should I beg for a mystical sign to make up for the time I know I’ve thrown away
How was I supposed to find you when I’m stranded in the ocean?

Selfsame

Now I've done what you asked me
Will you stay?
Now I've done as you asked me
Can I stay here?

You know I never want to see
Never want to see you alone again
Because I never want to be
Never want to see me alone

I was born with my eyes wide open
And I won't start hoping on a star right now
You try to tempt me with your store-bought passion
But your forethought flashes in the dark
Somehow we hurt each other for the selfsame reasons
There's a sad, strange treason in the heart
And you say you will, but you know you'll never move from where you are

I was young and un-emptied
Unafraid
I was young and you bent me
To your way here
I get the feeling that you're not feeling that you've got me alone again
And if you're feeling that I'm not feeling it, I'm not coming home

I was born with my eyes wide open
And I won't start hoping on a star right now
You try to tempt me with your store-bought passion
But your forethought flashes in the dark
Somehow we hurt each other for the selfsame reasons
There's a sad, strange treason in the heart
And you say you will, but you know you'll never move from where you are

She's a downhearted dancer
But she taught me a lesson
Because if we are the answer
Then you've asked the wrong question

 

Solo

Get used to wanting
Get used to needing
Get used to saying
I used to see him
Things never did quite go your way oh ay oh
Don’t be the one I throw away oh ay oh
Go on and leave me

All alone again. Solo.

I feel it on you
It's in your breathing
Can’t help but want me
Can’t help you’re leaving
I’ve always had this gravity ah ay oh
Beautiful things just crash to me ah ay oh
Before they violently sky away

All alone again. Solo.
 

Swoon

Gold. Ice. Silk. Blood. 
Strain. Fight. Scream. Curse.
Goad. Try, but you’re never gonna get my heart.

Word. Will. Flesh. Trust.
Wound. Charm. Sweat. Burst.
Heal. Kill. You’re never gonna get my heart.

And I wish I had the words to say to show you
And I wish I knew the way  back where we came
But you’ll never know
No, you’ll never know how much I long to find a way to love again
But the longing doesn’t end and you’re never gonna get my heart

Five walls. Rough-hewn.  
Cats call. Blush. Swoon.
Night falls. You’re never gonna get my heart.

Bold signs. Young skin.
Fat eyes. Dine-in.
Fresh lies, but you’re never gonna get my heart.

And I wish I had the words to say to show you
And I wish I knew the way back where we came
But you’ll never know
No, you’ll never know how much I long to find a way to love again
But the longing doesn’t end and you’re never gonna get my heart
 

 

Taste of Gold

I am all a plate glass window.
Looking through me every day.
In the night, I'm all reflection.
You were, I was, you see, you saw, you say.

In my mirrored light you're taller.
The summer sun has warped my pane.
If I brought you true perspective,
You'd close the blinds and leave me cold again.

I await the dread disaster,
Some uncommon tragedy.
Don't you tell me it can't happen,
Cause once it does, the odds don't mean a thing

Though the hands are hardly holy,
Pilgrims come to kiss the ring.
But the taste of gold eludes them
And such a shame they came from all that way.

What am I here for? I never felt like I knew.

What is this unkind perversion?
Why the sudden change of pace?
Could it be that we're all destined
To cloy, to claw, to cool, to walk away?

You'll awake to crystal mornings,
Splintered shadows on your face.
All my cracks and complications
Will speed me on the saddest fall from grace.

What am I here for? I never felt like I knew.

You were never once a liar
But you choose the truth you tell
Was it all some grand illusion?
Does fire ever burn inside that shell?

Offer me no empty solace.
Keep your memories to yourself.
Treat me with that cool precision
You made me come to know so very well.

 

Tell Me

Breath chasing breath
Our steps start locking
There’s no time for talking
No time for talking
They’ll track us down if they see you got away

Right pacing left
Backroads to walk
If we just reach the crossing
Must reach the crossing
Before this county sees the light of day

I know the sight of things at war within your head.
Will the victor be the passion or the name that you've abandoned?
But maybe I'll help you lighten up the load that's on your head
I'll be patient. I'll be steady.
I'll be waiting. I’m already saying,
"Tell me what you want me to be."

Breath chasing breath
There’s no time for talking
Our heartbeats are knocking
Heartbeats are knocking
By now, they’ll all have heard you got away

Life pacing death
Backroads clocking
Just passed the crossing
Rushed past the crossing
We can’t turn back, no matter what they say

I hear the clatter of their calls within your head
“He’s a villain!”
“You’re a baby!”
“Are you happy?”
“Is he crazy?”
But maybe I'll lean a ladder up the walls within in your head
Put the old world in the rearview
I’m riding right here with you, saying,
“Tell me what you want me to be.”
 

 

Tell You

I was a shade off right
But over time
I drifted miles and miles

You must have left your mind
To think that I
Would be the place to hide

All of our plans and
Misunderstandings
This kind of thing is
Just too demanding
I never said to look to me to be the one that you rely on. 
No

What good could come of
This wasted motion,
All of your time, and
Misplaced devotion?
I never said to look to me to be the one that you rely on

And I know you wonder
Why I let you come so far oh
You won’t believe me if I tell you
You won’t believe me if I tell you
How I know what comes tomorrow
You won’t believe me if I tell you
You won’t believe me if I tell you    

I stayed awake all night
To stem the tide
The tide of rising doubts

I was afraid I’d find
The trouble high
On the horizon now 

How can we run?
I’m still trying to stand
And I’ll be the one
Who ends up abandoned
I don’t know when I came to be the kind you have to keep an eye on
No 

What good could come of
This wasted motion,
All of your time, and
Misplaced devotion?
It wasn’t fair to look to me to be the one you could rely on

And I know you wonder
Why I let you come so far oh
You won’t believe me if I tell you
You'll only leave me if I tell you
How I know what comes tomorrow
You won’t believe me if I tell you
You won’t believe me if I tell you    

You claim you came for love
Convince me.
 

 

Torch

And when it started we were tongue-tied, taken, rather fond of being carried alight
And when we part, it's such an odd sensation. It's a love like being buried alive

Say, say morning, yeah I know the day is forming, but we haven't quite yet finished our night
Say, say gloaming, now before you get to roaming, won't you stay a spell here stemming the tide?
The end of time

And when we landed we were shell-shocked, shaken. There's a glassy look of doubt in your eyes
No more abandon, just a plea for patience, while I slowly burn away my disguise
Say, say worry, never waited, never hurried. Did I hope to have my gray matter mined?
Say, say glory, I'm a cautionary story. If he stares at me the sun'll go blind
The end of time

When it comes for me, desire, I'm a wooden man and you throw me onto the pyre
Will you watch me burn? Are you tired?
I'm all alone
 

Victoria

Stop. Wait. Just stand there. 
Not one step closer. 
Eyes on me. 
I really want to know your name. 

Saw you coming down the avenue, 
I know you know what’s on my mind. 
I came here with my girl Victoria. 
I really think you’re just her type. 
And you don’t have to say a word to me, 
As long as you don’t waste my time. 
You know we only want what’s best for you. 
We only want to take a ride. 

Put both hands on her. 
Spread your legs wider. 
Ran your name. 
I really want to get you inside her. 

Saw you coming down the avenue, 
I know you know what’s on my mind. 
I came here with my girl Victoria. 
I really think you’re just her type. 
And you don’t have to say a word to me, 
As long as you don’t waste my time. 
You know we only want what’s left of you. 
We only want to take a ride. 

But you’re not enough. 
No, you’re not enough. 
There’s no stopping her, My Victoria. 
Said you’re not enough. 
No, you’re not enough. 
Once I start her up, It’s me and my Victoria.

They want all of us in Victorias.
 

 

Young Adult Fiction

Are you certain? Are you whole? Are you warm? Are you safe?
Are you hedging your bets with the time that you borrow today?
Tomorrow. It's a fiction, a vapor, a shade
It's the hitch in your step when you're walking alone by a grave

All your life
All your life you've been wondering
Who it is you're supposed to be
What is you're supposed to see
All your life
All your life you've been waiting
I've got news for you, Simone
The future isn't home

Are you folding? Are you bolting or toning it down?
After all that it cost are you finally running aground?
You said you had it coming
You never gave up until now, with all the people gathered round

All my life
All my life I've been wondering
Who it is I'm supposed to be
What is I'm supposed to see
All my life
All my life I've been waiting
I've got news for you, Simone
The future isn't home